Love- I wonder if I had never had my children would I have a clue what that word even means. I never thought my heart was capable of loving sooo much. I always thought of myself as a hollow shell, and that my existance on this earth was purely meant just to go through the motions, one heavy step at a time, until I died. But then I had this little girl, who would look at me with these big brown eyes and she would change everything. She would bring tears to my eyes at the mere thought that I would have to live one day without her. She would mend all my wounds and show me things I never knew existed. She would pull out the best in me and make me see the beauty in the world instead of all the strife. She would become my best friend and my little rock when things felt like they were at an end. She taught me how to love....
Laughter- Little boys have this great ability to find the game in everything. I see his shadow and I smile, I know he is up to mischief and there will be a mess to clean, but I welcome the chase. He has this twinkle in his eyes that makes me melt and that sweet giggle that makes me laugh. I went through life in an uncomfortable pose, hoping I either met the standard or trying to shake the foundation- but never knowing who it was I wanted to be. I never could relax enough to say the first word, or take the first step. My son taught me to be fearless for the sake of fun. To live life on the wing of spontaniety and to be silly even at the risk of looking foolish.
Patience- Two babies waking every 30 minutes every night for a year could crumble a kingdom if a little lesson in patience was not learned. Two little sets of legs running quickly in opposite directions into oncoming traffic would be the best way to describe an adventure I call twins. They came to me when I thought my life was going a different route, when I was wanting to be more selfish and indulgent, but they told me no. They told me that I had a place and it was a good place and that although at times I felt I was about to break, I learned that my heart, my arms, my back and my mind could handle more. They pushed it to the limit and made me take a step back to reorganize. They were a gift and a gift I am ever soo thankful for.
They all made me realize my own strength and I once in a while when I think no one is looking, I pat myself on the back.....
Laughter- Little boys have this great ability to find the game in everything. I see his shadow and I smile, I know he is up to mischief and there will be a mess to clean, but I welcome the chase. He has this twinkle in his eyes that makes me melt and that sweet giggle that makes me laugh. I went through life in an uncomfortable pose, hoping I either met the standard or trying to shake the foundation- but never knowing who it was I wanted to be. I never could relax enough to say the first word, or take the first step. My son taught me to be fearless for the sake of fun. To live life on the wing of spontaniety and to be silly even at the risk of looking foolish.
Patience- Two babies waking every 30 minutes every night for a year could crumble a kingdom if a little lesson in patience was not learned. Two little sets of legs running quickly in opposite directions into oncoming traffic would be the best way to describe an adventure I call twins. They came to me when I thought my life was going a different route, when I was wanting to be more selfish and indulgent, but they told me no. They told me that I had a place and it was a good place and that although at times I felt I was about to break, I learned that my heart, my arms, my back and my mind could handle more. They pushed it to the limit and made me take a step back to reorganize. They were a gift and a gift I am ever soo thankful for.
They all made me realize my own strength and I once in a while when I think no one is looking, I pat myself on the back.....
14 comments:
And you should pat yourself on the back - your own reality show.
You're there for your kids and learn them how to live in their lifes. But vice versa - they educate you back.
you are strange. thanks for kind comments on my silly paintings. youre blog is extremely something.
You've discovered the true meaning of life.
That was so sweet! But I knew you were a loving, devoted mom, anyway. :)
You know I love this post, shroom. Beautiful. And, so true -- all of it. Especially the love. It's exactly how I feel. It's a love like no other, and it's overwhelming. :)
Dale- ohh man, TV ain't ready for this girl.... I would become ever sooo popular and famous. People would apsire to be me, girls would style their hair like mine (the scrunchie would make a huge come-back) and there would be a world of merchandising. I have always wanted to have a lunch box designed after me- wouldn't that be the bomb....
Bubbly Theater- kids are a two way street, you gain as much wisdom and you give, and you get a chance to right the wrongs you feel you were unfairly dealt....
t zaum- ohhh geee thanks, strange- that kicks ass, aloha...
suzyq- killer, I knew I would unwittingly discover it one day. I just need someone to build a theme park around me and I will have the best life ever!!!!
Tumuli- devoted Mom? whatever, I was talking about the new line of Black and Decker tools at Sears....
just kidding....
Haley-O - thanks lady, I try not to throw in my kids into my wierd mix of crap I call a blog but sometimes you take a look around you and you say wow, this is the best it has ever been and I am the best me that I have ever been and for once my heart doesn't heart and my mind is at peace, and I have 4 little ones to thank for that....
For all your crazy ass shaking, one thing I always picked up on was...you're a great mom.
Awe, that's so sweet. Sounds like Super Mom Shrooms has some pretty amazing kids.
I loved this post. Beautiful...
Poetic...These are thoughts I have had about my own experience as a parent but never had the words to say.
Skincarver- thanks babe... I try, I really do and when I am totally spent I put em to work in my little tortilla factory....
Sherry- yeah, they are pretty good little monkeys.. as long as I never see them on America's Most Wanted I have done my job.... and done it well...
Slaygirl- well this aint Hallmark sister- I don't want to see any of this crap showing up on any Mother's Day cards- I have copywritten everything just to make sure. ha, ha, ha.....
Simply beautiful.
sob
I'll need to buy one of those specially absorbant shroomie-towels for $149.99 USD, please.
Very reflective.
sob.
You are hardly a shell. You're just cruchy on the outside and soft in the middle.
speakeasy- thanks -little sarcastic fucker.... man, I could make a fortune off those towels though eh??
note to self- take the blog in a very dark and sad direction- make em cry...
Tenacious S- kinda like a cockroach.... cool....
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